I have been experiencing most of my lows after lunch and before dinner so I think I am going to have to call my diabetes team to make some insulin changes in my pump.

To be honest the dinners are not really my cup of tea so I have been eating home cooked meals instead. The food provided for dinner come in these vaccum sealed packages and you add boiling water to it to plump it up. I feel like I am eating food that they give to astronauts. I liked a couple of the microwavable dinners which were better but, still not like eating a meal made from scratch.

Overall, this week I stayed the same weight so I am still down 3 pounds. I am happy with the results. I will just have to figure out what I am going to do about the dinners. I guess I am going to keep eating homecooked meals, and follow the guide.

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Anyway, I have noticed a couple of things with the foods I am eating on Nutrisystem D. There aren’t huge post-prandial spikes, at my two hour mark after eating. It is holding steady in the 120-150 range and I have never had post-prandial numbers like this EVER! I add in fruits, veggies and dairy with each meal and all of these things combined is not only making me full but giving me more energy throughout the day as well. Ya know the good ol’ food pyramid I guess someone knew what they were talking about with that haha.

I feel like I am back to basics and learning how to eat healthy again. This past weekend I didn’t have a couple of nutrisystem meals because Big M and I went out but, I used my Nutrisystem going out guide and honestly I found myself finding it so helpful.  I added in more salad and veggies instead of carbs and felt more satisfied and my blood sugar didn’t spike. Which is a huge plus!

The tools I am learning in such a short amount of time are things I hope to keep using throughout the next couple of months and hopefully I will get to my goal. Until then I will keep doing what I am doing and try not to stress too much if I don’t lose anything!

Baby steps…

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Anyway, she read the post and returned to back to the IM box and said can I offer you a suggestion? I said YES. Of course I would say yes right? I am a firm believer in constructive criticism.

“When you look in the mirror and feel like cringing, try to notice what is beautiful about you. Being kind to you, will help you get to your goal.”

Being kind to me, myself, and I thought? For what? I don’t deserve to be nice to me until I have perfect blood sugars for more than one day.

I don’t usually look at myself in that way but, maybe she is right. Can thinking differently about myself actually help me get to my goal of losing weight and feeling great while doing it?

I don’t know. All I can think about since she said that to me are things I know I am not good at in my life. How do you turn bad thoughts into good? I guess this is how you get to this point in the first place right? Gaining weight, bad a1c’s and self pity, blood sugars out of range because you don’t have self control and then you turn to other things for comfort. Your life heads into a downward spiral that completely goes out of control and it takes forever for you to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

When do I finally say Hey, Self!! Wake up! You are worth it, you can do this!

How the hell do you get to that point??? I dunno.

All I know is when I finally think I can do something to help ME, I do it for a while and then it turns into, Oh, I will just finish this tomorrow, I will start that diet on Monday. Maybe I am just set-up for failure. Who knows.

Hopefully from this point forward things are going to change for the better. I guess we shall see.

I am not really sure what is going on with my weight but, something needs to give before I weigh so much that it won’t be safe for me to try and even get pregnant. I know that I may be over-reacting and that I am not obese, but my current weight is making me a bit uncomfortable in my own skin. I don’t want to be a rail-thin skinny minnie, just a better weight for my height, maybe drop a few pounds so i can be on my way to pregnancy. I feel as though I am becoming desperate on so many levels.

And with that, a knock on my internet door, just at the right moment! Out of the blue I was contacted by Nutrisystem to be a part of their Blogger 15 program! It was like they knew I was at my witts end! After filling out some questions and a doctors note, they picked me as one of the people they will be sponsoring for the next 3 months. I will be receiving 90 days of complimentary nutrisystem food from the Nutrisystem D women’s program. In case you don’t know what that is, it is a weight loss program designed specifically for people with diabetes. They have over 130 gourmet style entrees for all three meals and you can also add in fresh foods as well. All of the food is on the low-glycemic index which will hopefully help keep me feeling full and keep my blood sugars in check.

In return I will be blogging once per week about my weight loss journey. The best part of this program is that they have accepted me as a Type 1 diabetic. I have tried to use other weight loss plans out there which do not let people with type 1 join, so kudos to them for allowing me to take part.

I have already received my first month of food, which also includes a meal planner and an on-the-go meal planner and dining-out guide. I started today and had great blood sugar results already!! Score!

This is what the shipment looked like, it includes: 28 breakfasts, lunches, dinners, snacks and desserts.

The meal planner (below) is perfect for me to check what I ate during the day as well as keep a log of what time I checked my blood sugars and the result.

Hopefully, this, along with exercise, will help get me on the right track to being healthier as well as lose some weight for a healthy pregnancy. Please follow me on my journey to lose weight and be sure to share your weight loss tips and tricks with me on what has worked for you!

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First, I would  make out with my husband, then probably Brett Michaels and Wilfred Brimley because it seems like the right thing to do… Then I would probably cry and scream with my family and then…

I would buy a huge giant GINORMOUS warehouse to mimic what Willy Wonka’s Chocolate factory looked like except better and invite everyone I knew and have a kick-ass carb zoned party. (because miraculously I would have so much money from not having to pay all of the copays at doctors visits and out of pocket expenses anymore! Yipee, so I would be rich!!)

I would have the oompa loompas and the gang, but they wouldn’t do any crazy sh*t to the ex-diabetics (oh excuse me, I mean people formerly known as diabetics, wait no we don’t like the term diabetic… we are formerly know as people that used to live with diabetes) Oh who cares this is my dream anyway! and we are cured so call it whatever you want! Please note: this is a dream sequence, because I don’t know if their will ever be a cure…

Ok, back to MY DREAM. My oompas would sing and dance their crazy rhymes but, serve you lemonade and chocolate milk and ask you if you want more carbs on your plate? And if you started counting carbs you would have to do a keg stand of lemonade with extra sugar…

In the middle of this crazy candy land, it I would have a chocolate river that could part into strawberry and vanilla at the end… in case you don’t like chocolate and then it would take you to a candy farm where their would be an edible field of every single candy bar or candy you can think of. Yes, and when it rained in there it would be skittles, and different clouds would have a different flavored bag… Oh you know original, wild berry, smoothie, sour and tropical will be available in the summer days when I turn the farm into a beach setting.

Oh and yes I would have everything edible and the everlasting gobstopper would make an appearance too. Lick the walls and all that too…But none of that fizzy pop, because I don’t wan’t people floating into the ceiling fans…Maybe Gene Wilder could make an cameo at my party (is he still alive?) And we would have a lot of celebrity guest there too for entertainment… My party would also have a bubble machine maker blowing out bubbles that tasted like Cherry Ring Pops…

Husband shakes me... Gina wake up…Oh well it’s good to dream!!